I lost my mind the last five or six days of February. It was not pretty, either. I didn't want to exercise (but I did -- good thing) and I was an eating maniac. This is the year of "No Excuses" so I am not going to give one, I just did it. It was a vicious cycle after school...cheezits, chocolate, cheese, pringles, repeat...I am not proud to admit that, but I will and that's what I did.Good news: I found my mind! Thank God! Good heavens this whole getting healthy can become such a mental battle, one that I want to get a better grip on. Especially, one certain week of the month when it can get really out of hand.
This morning I got up and worked out with my Biggest Loser Last Chance Workout DVD. That one always seems to really get me going. I spent the day/night before wondering, what is going on? Why did I let myself cave? What happened to my mental strength? What am I afraid of, all of a sudden, after the success? One thing I kept coming back to is I was letting satan have a handle and deceive me and he just is not allowed to do that, at all, EVER! So while I was working out, I was shouting him out of the room and out of the situation. Letting him (and anyone else who could hear me) know that this IS my year. I am going to get STRONG! I am going to get HEALTHY! I am going to be in the best shape of my life! I called upon the name of my Lord and Savior! This lead me to Philippians 4:13...I can do ALL things through CHRIST who strengthens me. And that is all the truth I needed. I had an amazing workout and was so happy with myself.
I have talked with myself over and over, I WANT TO RUN! How crazy is that, maybe I have lost my mind! Ha! Not really. That is the truth, I want to run. I am going to run. It is 27 days until my 20th anniversary and I want March to be an amazing month. I want to kick a lot of weight bye-bye. One sure way I know to do that is to really boost my cardio workouts. I am 20 pounds lighter than I was before and now is the time to start running. I am just going to do my own thing for right now. I am starting today and will run Tues/Thurs/Sat. Starting off, I am going to walk to the retention pond as my warm-up and then run the track over there. I don't know how long it is. It is just my starting point. I will see where this takes me.
Tomorrow is my weigh and measure day. I am not overly excited about it, but it is what it is. The truth is there. I have to visually see it, be proud of what I have done, know that everything I do adds up to what the final outcome is, and own it. I will. I am so looking forward to this afternoon to see what I can accomplish. Wish me luck!
